I wake this morning at 5:15am with a different kind of feeling. I feel kind of sick to my stomach, but not because of the flu or anything. Just because I feel mixed up emotionally. I have feelings of regret, feelings of sorrow, feelings of loneliness. But I also wake this morning to hope as I open my email account and find a note of encouragement from my little bro. Sometimes, when we feel like things are turned upsidedown, it takes a brother or sister in Christ to help us see that things aren't as backwards as they might seem. God has certainly blessed me in the family area, and I am so thankful for all of them. I hope I can be an encourager to them as Mr. Neal Spencer has been to me this morning.