Wow, learning a lot about our society and culture today. I found out that my FSW 365 class is Human Sexuality. Yikes! Already, I've seen pictures that I would not really expect to see unless I was buying a porn magazine. I'm wondering how I'm going to deal with all of it......there's just some things I don't want to know! At least not until I'm married. I'd rather find out on my own than read a text book and see pictures. Ick. I hope maybe something good can come from it, but right now, it's just making me think about things I really don't want to think about, and it's dredging up past experiences in my life that I feel a lot of guilt about. Neither good things. Or maybe in some way it will be.....I don't know. I almost just want to take a stand and say "I can't take this class because it goes against my beliefs and will inflict harm on my relationship with God." But, I also think that would mean giving up my possibility of a Family Relationships minor. ??
The second thing that was kind of a crazy "learning" experience for me was a run-in I had at the theater with a friend I lifted with last semester. We got to know each other a little bit while we lifted, and he happened to stop by the theater tonight. So we talked for a bit, I closed the theater, and he invited me to his buddy's place. So, I decided to go over for just a little bit and hang out. So....I had my first experience with watching people roll and smoke pot. It's probably strange that I'm 22 and haven't had any experience at all with it yet...the closest thing has been watching Jared roll his own cigarettes. haha. Of course, I've read all about drugs and pot and everything else, as well as heard many personal experiences, but never really expereinced it "live." By any means, it was interesting I guess. Of course I didn't smoke any, but I watched with great interest and wondered "why is it that people do this?" Not really in a condemning way.....just in a way of really wondering what drives people to do the things they do.
So, sex and pot today. Wow. I feel like a whole new person....... *weird face* There's certainly not much innocence left in the world. Sometimes I am a little jealous of the little children....so protected from the grossness and harshness and ugliness of the world. Pure. Whole. Innocent. And free. Where is the line when everything becomes so real and messed up?
The second thing that was kind of a crazy "learning" experience for me was a run-in I had at the theater with a friend I lifted with last semester. We got to know each other a little bit while we lifted, and he happened to stop by the theater tonight. So we talked for a bit, I closed the theater, and he invited me to his buddy's place. So, I decided to go over for just a little bit and hang out. So....I had my first experience with watching people roll and smoke pot. It's probably strange that I'm 22 and haven't had any experience at all with it yet...the closest thing has been watching Jared roll his own cigarettes. haha. Of course, I've read all about drugs and pot and everything else, as well as heard many personal experiences, but never really expereinced it "live." By any means, it was interesting I guess. Of course I didn't smoke any, but I watched with great interest and wondered "why is it that people do this?" Not really in a condemning way.....just in a way of really wondering what drives people to do the things they do.
So, sex and pot today. Wow. I feel like a whole new person....... *weird face* There's certainly not much innocence left in the world. Sometimes I am a little jealous of the little children....so protected from the grossness and harshness and ugliness of the world. Pure. Whole. Innocent. And free. Where is the line when everything becomes so real and messed up?
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