Living Sacrifice

Monday, August 23, 2004

AHHHHHHHHHHHH! School tomorrow! hehe

Still contemplating a new computer. Desktop this time (and I'll still get my laptop fixed so I have a computer that transports). Any good computer suggestions? (ah hem....Spen?? lol) Sound card and video card are important.

And, I'd just like to say that if anyone ever needs cheered up, call me and I will personally come visit you with a Riley Armstrong CD that has the song "Banana Bread" on it and will give you a short live performance of me singing along with the CD. I don't know why, but that song is so hilarious to me, and it makes me laugh out loud every time I hear it. Hopefully, it will have the same effect on you, and if not, then hopefully my foolish dancing and singing will. *grin*

Did I mention that school starts tomorrow?? AHHHHHHHH! :)

Sunday, August 22, 2004

Well, my computer is awaiting a box made especially for it so it can take a trip to Texas where it will soon see a computer doctor and get to feeling better. In the meantime, I'm making random trips to the library to check email and such. Hopefully, my computer will be back to normal soon. Thinking about buying a new one sometime soon....probably a desktop this time (I'll hopefully still have my laptop to tote around when I need it) with massive sound and video card features so I can record better music and maybe someday make my own cool music videos (haha...riiiiight). Anyway, I really need to start saving...I realize how much I just throw money away. I'm serious. I'm really starting to worry about my spending. I have plenty of money for a college student, but at the rate I spend now, I won't have when I graduate. Time to start being responsible. And I keep thinking of things that I want (errr...NEED, that is), like a really expensive guitar, a new computer, a CD burner so I don't have to keep sending my songs elsewhere to burn them, and sometime it would be nice to get my car fixed (don't even make me list the things that are wrong with my car). *sigh* Money.......I'd like to think that I don't depend on it...that I could live simply with very little. I used to think I wasn't very materialistic....HAHA. What a joke. Maybe not in the sense of fashion and stuff, but I've gotta have my things. Certainly something I could work on.

Anyway, had some peeps (11) over for dinner the other much fun! I wish I had the $$ and time to do that all the time. It's awesome just to chill out with people that I love. I've got some fab pics, too, but I don't have time to scan and put them on here at the library. The one of Andrea imitating Jason is so great, because I have one of Jason. She's a spittin image. :)

Talked to Micah on the phone last nite at about 2am. It was awesome. I haven't talked to him since C and E's wedding, and he's now in Oklahoma. He was laughing at me when I said I wanted to live down south, and he said that over half the population wears cowboy hats. haha. I'd fit right in. *grin*

Found out my French teacher from high school was given about 2 weeks to live. If you feel led, please pray for her and her family. She has a son who is around 19 years old and a husband.

Other than that, just getting ready for class. I'll be working at the theater, working for Vir and her mom, co-leading worship with TJ for Veritas, working every so often with the task force for the Women's Center in Hamilton, taking classes (don't fret! I only have 12 hours, 2 of which are individual exercise and 1 for guitar in Middletown), and hopefully chilling out with peeps and writing/recording some music or something. AND...trying to figure out what the heckle I'm going to do when I graduate from this place!!! It'll come I guess.

One more prayer request....I feel really far from the Lord right now. I feel like I don't know Him like I have before. So, if you want to, please pray for me to get re-connected with God and know Him as my Lover and my Friend, putting others before myself as His servant.

Peace out.

Saturday, August 14, 2004

Well, it has been a while since I've posted. Guess I took a little blog vacation, and I kinda wonder how many people really read this thing anyway, so I've been debating on just going to a private journal that I can write in with pen and paper. We'll see about that.

In the meantime, tons of things have happened since I last blogged, including my brother's joining together with Andrea in marriage, me being put in charge of the theater for a week, a mini vacation to Lake Cumberland with TJ and his family, and the death of my grandpa. It's hard to believe all of these things have come and gone so fast, and sometimes I begin to feel like I am in a dream, like these things aren't really happening because of my diminished feelings and emotions. Sometimes I don't feel like I feel anymore. Things just come and go, and I don't really feel them. It's kind of hard to explain, but I think it has a lot to do with my life being so preoccupied with things it shouldn't be preoccupied with. My life revolves around me and my self-worth, self-esteem, and body image, and it seems that as long as I am a slave to these things, I don't really experience life to it's a dream, just kind of floating through things with no feelings.

Other than these thoughts, I've been watching relationships in our family the past couple days, and it's been pretty cool, just to see how relationships change over time and how one person can relate one way to a certain person and relate in a totally different way to another person. And, if there is one good thing that seems to come from death, it is a closer bonding in relationships. I must say, it has been a really good feeling to have everyone together again.